Chapter 1

Six months later…

          Kurt stepped from his family’s doorway and crossed Apostel-Paulus-Straße before entering the church courtyard.  It was a shortcut, true, but he really just liked the walk through the little bit of nature. Amidst the old trees, the red-brick church rose high; made even higher by the towering copper steeples.  They had long turned green as the church endured season after season, but his parents could still remember when they shone brightly.

          “History…” his father said, “Watching the steeples turn, is like watching what was once new, become history.”

          Kurt was sure that family is what made them part of history.  The von Schönberg family had a rich legacy in the area.  They were respected and dependable, though the Weimar Constitution changed everything.  The area they lived in retained the name Schönberg, but the fallout from the Great War caused changes to come to the most remote parts of Germany.  The nobility were stripped of their titles, and in some cases, their names.

          Now the von Schneider family, they retained a large piece of property in the heart of Berlin.  The garment factories and warehouses survived the war, somehow. But, Kurt’s family almost didn’t.  His mother, who was once the life of the party and a most gracious, noblewoman, was left frayed and disheartened with the death of her oldest son.  The German leadership said that the war was necessary, but that they just couldn’t hold out. But, in the last days of the war when Kurt’s brother was killed, it was believed that the German government had deceived them.  The Countess von Schönberg was left a bitter, angry woman.

          After all that, Kurt was left with the heavy burden of being the next head of their own small empire.  What were once his brother’s duties now fell to him. Giving up his dream of becoming a great architect, he set his mind to becoming a great son.

          Shaking himself from his daydream, he covered the distance through the courtyard quickly.  His father, a proud and strict man, would never let it down if he were late to work. The bus ride to their Tiergarten warehouse was quick, but things had started to change.  Germany was in financial trouble, and times were hard for many. The Chancellor had given people hope, a purpose, but when the Reichstag burned, the demeanor of a whole nation shifted.

          Using the powers granted him, Hitler rounded up anyone associated with the communist party.  One day, a coworker and good friend of Kurt’s was taken in for questioning. While Kurt was certain that the friend had no political aims, he couldn’t be certain.  So, when he returned to work a week later covered in bruises and obviously shaken, no one said anything. That’s how it went on. People would dis- and reappear.

          Kurt was uncomfortable at the thought.  It even made him angry. But, more than that, it made him nervous.  If it started with the communists, it would move on to others as well, and he had his own secrets to keep.  Looking to the window and into the reflection there, Kurt inspected his features. There were no outward signs, no writing on his forehead, or rouge on his cheeks.  But, the thought that one day there would be questions, “Why aren’t you married?  Why do you have no children?”  made his palms start to sweat and head ache.

          Then he smiled.  The night before had been fun.  Aside from all the fear, was the excitement.  He’d made his way to Werner’s after work. He spent the next hours sharing drinks and laughs with his closest friend.  The walk to The Eldorado was exhilarating.  The feeling as people stared was as intoxicating as the feeling of silk on his legs was luxurious.  The emerald green gown fit him well and was exactly what he’d hoped he’d wear his first time to this club.  One couldn’t just waltz up and expect to see Marlene Dietrich. For his birthday a few months ago, Werner had surprised Kurt with his own wig.  It was more expensive than Werner could afford, but it was real, and it was his.

          They drank and danced with the elite of the Berlin underworld.  As it always was, men would float in and out of conversation. There was everything from women as men to men as women, to men who were obviously men.  Though many had offered to take him home, Kurt shied away and left alone like he always did. After transforming back into a von Schneider, he made his way to the family home.  

          The two parts of himself were always at war, and no matter how much he tried, he couldn’t think of how he could ever reconcile them.  With a deep sigh, he looked through the window instead of the reflection in it as the large warehouse came into view. For the moment, he locked away that side of himself and pulled the string to signal his stop.

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Can’t Get It Out of my Head

I used to love the movie Cold Mountain. Like, watch it 3 times a day, love.

It’s been a few years since I’ve seen it now, though.  But I woke up with this closing monologue running on loop through my head.

It won’t stop!

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Ugliest

I’m not politically correct and I’m not a serene type of person.  I feel things strongly and it shows.  I am quick to state my opinions and am usually too stubborn to change them out loud (even if I am wrong in the end).  But, I’m not an asshole, on purpose.

“That’s the ugliest…”

I was thinking about the word and its context in the world today.  I’m not entirely sure that it has a place anymore.  In a time when everything can be researched and quantified, ugliest is just too speculative.  Who has time for speculation anymore?

What type of person are you if you’re willing to assign that adjective to a person?

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I repeat, I am guilty of this too.  This post is probably directed more at myself than anyone else.  But, instead of ugliest, what if,

“That guy just isn’t my type.”

or

“I wouldn’t wear that, but you do you.”

It comes down to being less of a judge and more of the jury.  Be a peer.  Recognize that most people are just trying to get through the day like you. Like me.

So the next time you feel that comment bursting out, picture this puppy, The Ugliest Dog in 2018.

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She may not be pretty, she might not be a Dogster Magazine cover dog, but you would love on her all the same.

Reviewers Needed!

As some of you might have seen earlier – my new romance novel is up for pre-order on Amazon HERE.  I am wanting to hit the ground running and have found myself in need of reviews.

Now, here is my proposition.  I will send you a PDF transcript version of the first nine chapters – thats 65 pages – of Stopped Short: A Baseball Romance.

In exchange for your Amazon review (between Nov. 1st-7th), you will receive a promo code for a  FREE download of the full book from Amazon or iTunes!

To be clear, you are in no way under any obligation to leave a review. Also, no matter what you write, the free book is yours if you’d like it!

If you are interested – use this contact form to sign-up!

 

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Exciting News!

Hi, friends!

I am happy to announce that my new book is available for pre-order on Amazon!

Available HERE for the low, low price of $2.99!

You can also see the revised first chapter HERE.

I am so happy to be sharing this news and this story with you.

-Kevin Ethan

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Book Cover Reveal!

Hey, everybody! I hope you had a great weekend. Since my novel is in the process of being approved for pre-order, I am excited to finally reveal my book cover!

You can check out the (updated) first 3 chapters, here.

I created it myself, since as a new indie writer, I do not have the budget to pay for an original.

Give me a like if you think I made a good choice.

I’ll announce when the pre-order is up. In the meantime, Stopped Short: A Baseball Romance will be available November 1st on Amazon and iTunes 🤗

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WTF, Pandora?

Y’all. So, I’m off work on Sundays and Mondays.  I’m doing a writing weekend and I’ve already added about 15,000 words to my novel. Yay, me!

I usually play the Pandora station, Classical for Studying, through my Apple TV and surround sound while I write because it helps keep my head clear.

Anyway, I’m sitting here just chugging along and the music is going – and from the rear speaker behind me it sounds like someone whispers in my ear!

Y’all, I flipped. My dog is back there. Did he just learn how to talk?! Anyway, I looked up the song that was playing and it’s from a piano album named Whisperings. 

Classical music shouldn’t whisper at you!

So, this post was just to say that Pandora, David Nevue – you fucked up my mojo, yo.

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